Digital Daggers - Still Here
Debbie, I don't know how to say how I truly feel. No words can describe what it's been like since you've left; all the years that had passed like trains in a sunset. No time has been able to erase my thoughts. No time has been able to erase the feelings of the past.
You deserved better than you got.
I remember all those years in school where I felt a warm presence by me. For awhile, I was afraid of it. But I always liked to think it was you keeping me company; and maybe it was. Even if it wasn't, the thoughts comforted me. Even if it was all in my mind, I knew you were still watching over me. Somehow, some way.
I hope you're up there in Heaven like you wished to be without the pain and suffering this world brought to you. The things you've been through; I can't even begin to comprehend. You're strong in every single way, Debbie. Back then, and here now. You are a warrior, Debbie.
You deserved better than you got.
People will get angry and upset. People will say that suicide is for cowards; that it makes one weak. They're wrong. People get angry and upset when they realize they could have did more for the person and people they claimed they loved. People don't understand that no one wants to go. They only want the pain to instead. And I understand. Even through all of the pain you got from this life, you still stood tall. You were there for your friends and family even when many hurt you.
You deserved better than you got.
Your memory will not be lost. It never will be.
It never will be.
You deserved better than you got.